Memorial Weekend

First I want to wish everyone a Happy Memorial Day, especially our military and their families for all they do for our country.  I can not say enough how much your service is appreciated.  For me long weekends can be good and restful and also stressful.  With the fibro, I don't have the energy sometimes to do the things my kids would like me to do for them.  And with me being the only income in a very costly economy, I can't buy the things my kids want many times, which hurts.  What really hurts is when they rather be over at their grandparents (either set) rather than being home.  And I know me stressing out over stuff is a part of it but sometimes it feels like it's me personally.  So holidays in general are tough for me.  Maybe I should just be at work instead.  At least then I would have a reason why I don't see them.  Just hope by me going back to school this fall and then possibly going to graduate school, I can then earn more money to do more things with them.  At the least, by finishing my BA at the minimum, maybe just having the satisfaction of finishing what I started almost 20 years ago will have an impact on how my kids feel about me.  And how I feel about myself, which right now I feel pretty low.  Just hard to keep it all together and feeling like I don't have much support.  Facebook has my only friends and my husband is my only emotional support.  He's been going thru depression too though so it's been someone with chronic fibro/depression trying to help someone with depression - tough!  But then I go back to being grateful, like for my opening sentence.  Our military gives us the freedom to speak, freedom to live life so then how can I feel so down when there are those who have lost their mom and dad.  Those that are overseas instead of seeing their family at all.  So I guess I'm a lucky girl afterall.  God bless my family and friends and God bless the USA.

Frustration

Finally get enrolled in UALR.  Even though I have heard unsupportive comments from family and friends/associates, I've also heard encouraging comments from my husband, kids and some other friends/associates.   Then some haven't commented at all.  That's ok - not my frustration.  What gets me is it's only MAY - go to sign up for FALL classes, and all the ones I need are FULL - no online classes open, and only 1 night class I can take.  The other "possibility" is in Benton, which is at least 30 minutes from work if you drive (not ride the bus) and an hour away from the house.  The classes I need are either full or during the day.  I'm so frustrated and with me being a Senior, at this rate, I won't get to finish by next Spring as I should be able to do.  Please say a prayer that I can get things worked out.  Sometimes the bad luck I have could go - anywhere but here!!  UGH!!

A new chapter

Well I haven't wrote in a while. Ok I guess since no one is following it. Decided to go back to UALR to finish my BA in Psychology. I meet with the department chair on Tuesday to find out exactly how many classes I have to take. I'm thinking around 10 but might also have to take more "foreign language" although sign language counts. So if anyone reads this and knows ASL well, let me know! Then I might look into different masters programs. I need to do something different than what I'm doing now. The stress of my current job and the issues surrounding it is putting a toil on my health, making me more crazy than what I already am!! Yes, I didn't know that was possible either!! So say a prayer for me as I go down this journey. Also trying to encourage my husband to go to college. He is more receptive than he has been in years past. I just hope he continues feeling that as I get him to study for the Compass test. I didn't even know there was such thing!! So that's been my news in a nutshell. Still dealing with the fibro, but sometimes you just have to get away, at least for a little while, from talking about it. It's been around me for a long time and I expect it's going to stay for a long time. Hope everyone is having a great weekend!