Memorial Weekend

First I want to wish everyone a Happy Memorial Day, especially our military and their families for all they do for our country.  I can not say enough how much your service is appreciated.  For me long weekends can be good and restful and also stressful.  With the fibro, I don't have the energy sometimes to do the things my kids would like me to do for them.  And with me being the only income in a very costly economy, I can't buy the things my kids want many times, which hurts.  What really hurts is when they rather be over at their grandparents (either set) rather than being home.  And I know me stressing out over stuff is a part of it but sometimes it feels like it's me personally.  So holidays in general are tough for me.  Maybe I should just be at work instead.  At least then I would have a reason why I don't see them.  Just hope by me going back to school this fall and then possibly going to graduate school, I can then earn more money to do more things with them.  At the least, by finishing my BA at the minimum, maybe just having the satisfaction of finishing what I started almost 20 years ago will have an impact on how my kids feel about me.  And how I feel about myself, which right now I feel pretty low.  Just hard to keep it all together and feeling like I don't have much support.  Facebook has my only friends and my husband is my only emotional support.  He's been going thru depression too though so it's been someone with chronic fibro/depression trying to help someone with depression - tough!  But then I go back to being grateful, like for my opening sentence.  Our military gives us the freedom to speak, freedom to live life so then how can I feel so down when there are those who have lost their mom and dad.  Those that are overseas instead of seeing their family at all.  So I guess I'm a lucky girl afterall.  God bless my family and friends and God bless the USA.